Monday 24 November 2014


My sister is married now.

Well, yesterday was the precise date, 22 November 2014, when she was married to the love of her life. They have been through ups-and-downs, tears and laughters, so many things I believe that had made them grow even stronger in commitment.

It is pretty strange that she no longer lives in this house. I've been used to living with her like for ages. Though we didn't see each other very often, didn't really chat very deeply, yet I knew, she slept next to my room, and whenever I heard her voice, I knew she was home safely.

There are some things that I might found them annoying, as her habits of using like 2 or 3 glasses in a day, how she put her things anywhere, unfinished meals in fridge and sometimes they would be left decaying inside. Honestly, I was a bit relieved knowing I wouldn't encounter those things anymore.

But now she is truly gone, I felt a small thump in my core. Like a little hole there. My parents would go home too by this Friday, and soon I would be alone with my boy again during the daylights.

I'm happy for you, lil sis. I hope you have a very happy married life!!! But I already missed you :'(



Wednesday 12 November 2014


I may not have their affection.
I may not be able to dine in fancy places, go to foreign cities anytime I wish or buy branded stuff no matter how much I desire.
I may not be able to complete the series of my favourite brands.
I may not be able to buy expensive, cutting-edge toys for my son.
I may not try to celebrate my son's birthday in a famous restaurant and invite the whole clan.
My husband may not try to buy me glittering jewelleries for me to publish for the world to see.
I may not be the favourite one in the clan.
I may not be the supple mom, blending in everywhere I turn.

But.

I'm grateful, that my son can't stay away from me for long.
I'm grateful, that my son demands me to feed him, to sleep beside him.
I'm grateful, that my son needs me.
I'm grateful, that my husband is a clear man.
I'm grateful, that I can be myself.


Sunday 2 November 2014

let it go


I really need to stop the stalking. It won't help.
Why do I keep viewing her as a competitor? Maybe she doesn't even think I exist, unless there are few times we ought to gather as a circle.
Please, please, mind your own business!!! Let her be with all her foolishness. Maybe she doesn't see those as a foolishness. Let her be with her own pride. Whatever forms they are in. Be it her magnificent love for and from her hubby and darling son, be it her newest outfit or shoes or bags or ever so faithful loving friends, or her latest finding of great and expensive food. Be it!!!
Let her be with her own world.
You think she doesn't deserve them all, due to what she had done, especially what she had done to you in the past? It's none of your business.
Go on with your life. It is more important than stalking her to find her slightest laughable actions and share them with your pals.
Your life is more important that all of that. Don't live in the past. Don't observe, don't compare.
Just live your life as God has set it to be.
Be free.