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Bulan lalu, tepatnya tanggal 6 Juni, kurang setelah lebih 3 minggu aku asyik berleha-leha di rumah Papa-Mama di Belinyu, Bangka, waktunya untuk kembali ke Jakarta, menunaikan kembali tugas sebagai istri Tuan Aries yang nelangsa ditinggal anak-istri selama itu. Bhihik.

"Beliin tiket buat 8 orang ya!" instruksi Mama.
WHAT?
Ternyata selain kami berempat (Papa, Mama, aku, dan Ben), kita ketambahan 4 orang lagi yang akan ke Jakarta pada tanggal yang sama.
Setelah drama membandingkan harga tiket di agen dan internet, kita dapet diskon lewat tiket.com, buru-buru pesen, buru-buru bayar pula. Semua dilakukan satu nama demi satu nama, supaya bisa dapet diskon tersebut. Untung jaringan 3G XL lagi lancar-lancarnya di sana, jadi gak ada kendala dalam pemesanan online.

Wonderfully Made It Is

4 Juni 2015

2 hari terakhir liburan di Bangka. Aplikasi Period Plus di ponsel pintarku sudah memperingatkan, "your period is coming soon". Aku sudah membekali diri dengan pembalut yang kubeli di swalayan setempat bernama Puncak.

6 Juni 2015
Pulang ke Jakarta. Haidku belum datang. Agak deg-degan memikirkan kemungkinan yang terjadi. Tapi aku mencoba mengalihkan dengan pikiran, "Ah, kecapean aja kali. Sampe di Jakarta juga langsung keluar."

11 Juni 2015
Setelah tersiksa karena tak tahu betul apa yang sedang terjadi dan tidak memberitahukan apa-apa kepada suami, aku memutuskan untuk membeli test pack hari ini. Yang fleksibel, tidak harus urin pagi, kataku kepada kasir apotek.
Hasilnya, dua garis. Aku tidak yakin harus bereaksi apa. Dibilang kaget juga tidak, karena aku sudah menyangka hal ini. Mungkin lebih kaget karena, kok bisa ya? Mengingat proteksi yang kami lakukan sepertinya sudah cukup rapat.
Malamnya, aku memberitahukan kabar itu kepada suami. Dia kaget, karena aku sempat liburan hampir 3 minggu di Bangka, berdua saja dengan Ben, berarti sebelum itu sebenarnya aku sudah hamil. Kami memutuskan, ini memang jawaban dari Tuhan, karena selama ini kami mengulur-ulur terus kapan punya anak kedua.

16 Juni 2015
Periksa ke dr Radit, Grha Kedoya. "Selamat, Bu, sudah hamil 5 minggu." Dokter menunjuk ke sebuah kantong kecil di layar USG. "Makan dalam porsi kecil, tapi sering aja, 6-8 kali," sarannya.
Sempat terjadi drama, karena obat penguat yang dia resepkan (Utrogestan) ternyata membawa efek samping yang membuatku pusing dan drowsy berat. Besoknya, obat itu langsung aku tukar dengan Dupasthon.

the second one!

Yes.
It is positive.
I'm pregnant already. 6 weeks, found out about two weeks ago.
Personally, honestly I received it with mixed feelings.
A tad of shock, confusion, with joy.
It was like, hey, isn't it too early?
Only then I realized, me and husband had been postponing again and again, being undecisive about when, and boom, God decided to interfere.

And I'm so glad He did.

It is still early, I feel quite stronger than I was when carrying Ben. Mbak has been on leave frequently, so many things I need to do by myself (oh, thank God Mom is here!). Queasiness was overcome pretty easily. But yeah, I feel tired faster.

Well, many things yet unrevealed. Let's just embrace it with hope and faith!

Bye Co-sleeping :'(

Start from last night, Ben is on trial to for independent sleep.

I WAS DEVASTATED.

Funny, since before last night, I was still wondering when he would get more independent. There are moments, I must admit with shame, when I got impatient with him being clingy to me, or even just being affectionate to me, like trying to kiss me like thousands time.

:'(

And now, that not-so-little baby of mine is bravely sleeping apart from his mother (husband sleeping with him for the first night). I can't help remembering the first time I had to stop nursing him, it was also painful. Then when we decided to sleep in separate bed, it was also a heartbreaking experience for me.

And yet this new step for us also brings the same awful feeling inside. I will deeply miss listening to him breathing, I will miss stooping by his bed just to watch him sleep, kiss his chubby cheek, or put some ointment on his scar, which he would refuse strongly by day. I know, I've been silly and impatient almost every time when he cried for bathroom in the middle of the night, and I started to repeat the question on my head: "When will he ever grow up and start doing things by himself?"

But this grumpy Momma did not anticipate the day when her baby boy suddenly step on a higher ladder with no warning. As much as I thought I want to ditch our habit of sleeping together, it turns out that it was me who feel most comfortable doing that.


Excuse me, I'm going to weep.

Eddie

My current crush!

I only knew him for a week, and I already head-over-heels for this magnificent Eton boy.
I knew he was nominated for Best Actor in Leading Role in Oscars for his work in "The Theory of Everything"(I had the movie downloaded safely, tbh). Yet, since I am not a big fan of Mr. Hawking, I didn't find myself rushing to watch the film.
Not until I saw Eddie on the Oscars night. I WAS INSTANTLY TOTALLY IN LOVE.
I love how glowing his face was, how goofy he was in the stage, how humble he was in his deliverance speech, and how madly in love he was with his newly wedded wife, Hannah. I love how genuine he appears, how authentic he is.

Only then I started to do a not-so-little research about him. I learned that he came from a pretty esteemed family, he was in the same year with Prince William ini Eton, and went to Cambridge (yeah, I drool educated men). And, he is a Briton! Yeay! His voice is unexpectedly deep, also.
I didn't realize he was the one who acted as Marius on Les Mis the movie. I only remembered that I wasn't really impressed by this particular man, with his freckles and wide lips. But his song of "Empty Chairs at Empty Tables" was memorable.

I think I'm officially obsessed, that I follow his fandom IG accounts everywhere. And unlike my previous crushes for Briton, as Tim Roth and Hugh Laurie - oh, and also Mark Owen from Take That, gee, what's in those guys, actually? - , it started with me seeing his real performances as a human being, not as a character in the movie. I mean, like for Tim and Hugh (first name basis, huh), I fell in love with their characters; Cal Lightman and Gregory House. When I did my researches on them, I barely able to stand their dark sides. Tim roots for politics, and Greg seems having a psychological issue. I fell in love with Cal and Greg, not Tim and Hugh.

But for Eddie, I truly swooned by his smile, his hazel eyes, his cute freckles, his amazing talents, his humble personality, his sweet and genuine love to his beautiful wife!

I'm taking a risk to sound like a young girl, but heck yeah, it's Eddie Redmayne! And I'm on a mission to look for and watch his movies!!!